Sick Girls

I just can't get over how horrible I feel, even physically, when one of my girls is sick. Molly had ran a fever off and on since last Friday and finally kicked it yesterday only to have Rozy catch whatever it is last night. Molly is a little different since she can at least tell us what the problem is but poor Roz has just been crying all day. Her fever tonite was 103, I looked in her mouth this afternoon and can see where her gums were bleeding from getting her jaw and eye teeth and now she seems to be tugging at her ears a little. Being a mother is just so hard. Just when you think that you have everything under control something like this happens and it seems to stop me dead in my tracks. I want to ask God what he has for me now because I am sure that I am about to be taught something meaningful again...it always seems to happen this way. Not to get too personal, but I have also been struggling with some family issues the last few days. I feel a little down in the dumps anyway so I guess that I need to just look up and see what there is to learn. My girlfriend had some really good advise for me the other day and reminded me that even when I just want for God to 'fix' things that isn't always what he has in mind...maybe I need to grow and be taught something through the "trials". I hope that I can someday become what he wants me to be so that I don't have to go through this molding process anymore although I know that day will only come in eternity. Until then I will strive for the prize....